knowing you had so many chances years ago
by xcopfly - February 7th, 2010, 4:28:27 AM.unfortunately you made some stupid decisions, were incredibly gullible, then paid for it for the rest of your life. you got angry at all the wrong people, and eventually all the others just couldn’t support you because then they looked bad.
this was ten years ago. for the next 5 years you did your best to undo the disaster you had just come out of, you made quite some progress, but had a new hurdle this time to deal with – apathy. you tried different things, making yourself look different to different people, they just happened to all fail.
then people suggested ideas for you to clean things up, but while they were really getting well, ~10 years of mismanagement finally unleashed itself.
at the same time you were still working on bringing yourself (i.e. what you looked like to other people) up to par in other situations. but what you didn’t realize was that all those attempts were part of a single combined failure. and this time you paid an even larger price.
what troubles you now is the fact that the one thing that was there for you, when the school bully bothered you, when nobody would call you, or invite you here or there, when your professors didn’t like your politics, is now being turned against you. ruthless, sadistic, sociopathic (and obviously greedy) criminal thugs are trying to shut you out, silence you, and no matter where you move to get away from them, they shut off that opportunity fast, and more and more powerful threats to us are developed with every newspiece promoting these criminal acts.
whatever happened to the culture you created from nothing but your hands and materials from the earth? whatever happened to the values and traditions you once embraced? does it really take that much to become a soulless person and destroy everything precious to people, including both your own culture and (to some extent) the cultures of others? and why do so many of us accept what you are doing, simply because you use profitable moneymaking buzzwords look like a political ideology which you publicly and openly violate, which we know fully and still publicly and openly accept what you do?
there is no going back. there is no way to have the same chances i failed last time come back for me to throw new things at. there is only one thing to do. and that is what i have been failing at for decades. wait for something, try, and pray you don’t fail this time…

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