Thursday, April 26th, 2012
Sometimes all it takes is one or two sentences of something to make me feel miserable for days and nights afterward. And that is what happened last night which continues through this evening, and hopefully will end soon. At least there is light in the evening. Otherwise I’d probably be totally destroyed. And adding to [...]
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Saturday, January 8th, 2011
it’s been busy here. been cleaning my room a bit. i came across the idea “maybe the reason i’m always upset and obsessed with disappointments & regret & stuff is because of the psychology of the old crap in my room from back then!” they say symbols have psychological meaning, like in your dreams as [...]
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Friday, October 29th, 2010
it’s been a bad week. probably 20 years old and it finally went. i ordered a new one but it was pretty expensive. though i can afford more now that i’m not a kid anymore. it’s been a real bad half week. and it’s about to get worse this weekend. i think this is the [...]
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Friday, August 13th, 2010
the future, what is it? it’s frightening because there really isn’t a succeeding stage to look forward to. it gets me very upset and years ago i lost a job partly due to stress over it (there were other reasons, but that might have been all part of it). if you did things wrong back [...]
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Tuesday, June 22nd, 2010
terrible. why? it doesn’t make sense! it shouldn’t make sense, something’s seriously wrong with this picture. what’s going on here? ;( it surely can’t be this way forever! scientifically! it’s impossible! and if it is, the world will never be the same…
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Sunday, June 13th, 2010
All of it. Photos, likes, “friends”, groups, info, even my name. Then I deleted (not deactivated) the account. In other words, everything I could get rid of, I did. Now it’s gone. I feel a sort of emptiness inside, though I’m sure it’ll pass as it didn’t make a damn difference. It’s like a new [...]
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Sunday, February 21st, 2010
Sometimes people listen to music because it reminds them of something. Except (in my case) it has come to a point where I feel miserable, either because I’m not there anymore, or that it came from a more hopeful time. Right now, it’s this game I used to play – the game demands constant play [...]
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Sunday, February 7th, 2010
unfortunately you made some stupid decisions, were incredibly gullible, then paid for it for the rest of your life. you got angry at all the wrong people, and eventually all the others just couldn’t support you because then they looked bad. this was ten years ago. for the next 5 years you did your best [...]
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